The Man Who Knew Too Much

Pride myself on being a man that knows what women want

How they like to be touched

Kissed

Caressed

Just what to say and when to say it

Which things in the bed will drive her crazy

Eyes rolling

Screaming so loud she’s lost her voice

Involuntary muscle spasms in the pelvic region

Legs begin to shake uncontrollable

What good that did me right?

I’m more alone than I ever been

Should’ve focused on a friendship

Before wasting someone’s time in another nowhere relationship

 God….

I know where I went wrong

……

I should’ve had You involved in this

S. Logan

2012

Intervention

So let me go ahead and admit this

I'm an addict

When it comes to you

You have me doing things that I've never thought I would

Taken me to places I've never imagined I would go

Even though you share a love....shared vows with him under God.....I can't stop

I've crossed lines that Satan himself wouldn't

But I don't plan on stopping anytime soon

You’ve got a hold of my soul

Maneuvering me in whatever direction you wish

I get the shakes

When I am away from you for too long

The smell of your perfume

Lingers on my collar

Reminding me of our latest rendezvous

I've got to get over this

Get you out of my mind

Though it's been many months since I've last had you....I still fiend 

S. Logan

2012

Silver Surfer

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I am aloof

Mind in the clouds….well the cosmos to be exact

Feeling light

My shoes could have anvils bonded to them with cement and that still wouldn’t keep me

I am not made for the ground

I was meant for this life

To fly

Zip in and out of intergalactic wormholes

Dodging asteroids

Light speed feels like the pace of tortoise to me

Hope you enjoyed me when I was around

Told you I was ascending

Shooting through the glass ceiling that holds so many of us back

Going for the crown

Hope I made you smile more than frown

Should you happen to lay eyes upon me as an earth walker

Don’t even bother speaking

I am only here for to visit loved ones that remain world bound

I don’t want hear a sound!

You’re the reason why I left

Tired of the back stabbing, you laugh at me because I dare to do what you never had the courage to…

Stand out

Show out

Step out

Matter of fact I’m done talking to you

Let me hop on my board and shoot back up to space

You can keep all that “I knew you would make it” talk

Peace, I’m out

-          S. Logan

2012

Time to Heal

Let’s smile more

Get away from the sadness

Embrace happiness

Push away sorrow

We control our own moods

Outside forces will always be there

Life is never a perfect picture

There are often smudges covering the surface

Are you willing to look?

Don’t fret

God won’t put more on you than you can handle

Scars eventually heal

We learn to move more freely

Range of motion has returned

Never let depression dim your light

Continue to let the fire burn

-          S. Logan

2012

Human Roulette

We play this game over and over

The danger and the risk of it all make for better enjoyment

Not understanding the levity of the situation

A life sentence without parole is what we’re facing

Think about it

The we’re walking loaded guns safety off

We shoot sometimes we miss and other times we wounded ourselves along with others

Though you live after being shot….the bullet will forever course through your vain until you die

-          S. Logan

2012

Atonement

As the church bells ring
I exit my car
Parked in the closes spot I could fine
Though as my steps begin to fall in line, I notice the walk is actually quiet far
Lord I know I’ve sinned and You’ve forgiven me every time
I walk into Your house and feel like an outsider
As if I don’t belong
The congregation has all eyes firmly planted on me
Sentiment is that I don’t belong
We’ve all sinned or at least I thought we did
Guess this is a house full of saints and the sinner stands alone

-S. Logan
2012

Burial

You took all the burdens of our sins

Died so we could live

The ultimate sacrifice

It is a shame for so long that I looked at life as the process of dying

When I should’ve been enjoying it

Loving it

Praising You for it…

On this day when You were resurrected

We make sure to not lose sight of the life You gave for us

A day that it seems has been clouded with the almighty dollar

I stand as a loyal servant in Your army Lord

I crusade for you

-S. Logan

2012

Vow

Some call it destroy and rebuild

I prefer to say that I am reorganizing my life

May not be the person you used to know

But I am well on the way to becoming the man I am meant to be

Pardon me if I don’t associate with you anymore

It’s for the best that we keep our distance

You’re living off the success of the past, My spirit is a like a 401k I’m investing for the future

You talking about the bad chicks you hit in high school, I’m talking about being celibate until I marry my wife

You stay worrying about breaking the sound barrier, I’m training for life’s marathon

I don’t fault you too much

I used to be like you

The only difference is that I got my stuff together now

My life was once in a pieces then God handed me the glue

Selah

-          S. Logan

2012

Darkness

I go back into the dark corners of my mind

Reflect on how my soul wasn’t always tarnished and stripped of its luster

Once it was golden…..the shine was unlike anything you would’ve ever seen

Maybe I was naïve then

Living in my own world and not pay attention to real life

Asleep at the wheel

Mind is numb from everything

How do I even begin to gather my thoughts?

Coming to think of it, I don’t even remember how thinking feels

I was diving face first into the abyss….some days I wonder if I was better off doing so because it seems like I made this change in life too late to recover from all my sins

Father forgive me

You are a God of both forgiveness and second chances

I repent day after day

You tell me that is enough and I must now make my actions fit the prayers I speak

A life consecrated

-S. Logan

2012

Housewife of Saint Louis

It’s getting harder and harder to keep her a secret

Sending me naked pics while her papers lays sound asleep next to her

Telling me I should come through because she just sent him on another wild goose chase…..trying to find another token to show his love for her

I show my love with the vigor in each stroke

She tells me I can skinny dip in her pool

Normally I wear a life jacket but I got caught up in the excitement a time or two…..three…..TEN!

My test keep coming back clean

Nothing to worry about on that end

So we continue

It’s deeper now

We no longer have rendezvous of lustful sin

She tells me about how he no longer sleeps in the same bed

Showing me the text messages

He’s calling her everything but a child of God

Nope

I won’t say anything

Not my place dude

I am just the side dick

My duties only list two things:  lick and stick

Not always in that order

We’re doing it again

Turing on the air in this hotel room in the dead of winter

Sex so scorching that it would melt her wedding ring if she still bothered to wear it

“Oh that good”

Is all I can think laying here in this bed

Worn out……too tired to even scoot over so I won’t lay in the wet spot

I fall asleep and as usual when I awake she is gone

What’s this I see?   A note?

Something’s inside of it…

A pen?  No

A toothbrush?  No

Cylinder shaped container?  No

“Two lines means you’re the father…….Love *********”

-S. Logan

2012

Boomerang Effect

Seems like I’ve been here before

Well I have been

Too many times before

In the same situation

With the same person

…Maybe not the same person but she fits the model of the others before

Always falling for the ones that never end up with guys like me

Said I was done giving my all only to get nothing in return

I can be everything to one person

Instead I am here being one thing to every girl

Never was my intent really

Thinking I could dick them down good enough that they would give me their heart along with their bodies

No such luck…

Same movie….

Different co stars…

I am the constant in this cast

Just when I think the show is over

I’ve taken my last bow…NOPE

Encore after encore

However it seems I have finally outgrown this role

Fin

-          S. Logan

2012