Under Attack

One day


As sure as I am putting pen to paper right now

We will look back on this point in history and call it

The good ole days

Not because they’re actually good

But because

The world is only getting worse

Sad to say

Think of the world

Our children will be growing up in

I wish

I could stop time

Just freeze right now

Cherish the moment

Live for now

The future is not promised

And if you do get to see it

Think of how dark the days will be



© 2010

Sticks n' Stones

Words hurt


Sometimes more

Than we care to admit

Bullying

Isn’t always physical

The verbal aspect

Has longer lasting effects

Sinking deep into the mind

If you bother

To get the know the person

Behind the eyes

A tortured soul

You will find

How long can you

Keep this to yourself?

Pretending like

Everything is alright

Inside

Fires rage

Burning

No one makes it through hell

Without some kind of reminder

Flesh wounds maybe

Or perhaps

The nightmares that same to never end

I think of the ones

Young and old

That have taken their precious life

Over what others have said

I pray your soul finds peace





© 2010

Bleeding Heart

No matter


What my political beliefs may be


I love my country still


They say I am anti you


Not the case


I will forever stand up for you


I just want you to get back


To the greatness that once was


I will speak out against elected officials


Why shouldn’t I ?


They work for me after all


Or so I was told


I salute


All that have serviced and died for you


Past


Present


Future


 
(C) 2010

Snake Bite

The venom
Racing through the temple
Slowly breaking down
Infected
Though they see themselves
As being cursed
How could this happen to me?
First thought
After the receive
The positive results

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The Mirror

Sometimes
It's like I am
In a fun house
From the looks
Of my reflection
You see the smiling
The frowns
How I still have a child inside
And how father time has been unkind
The triumph
The torment
Glory
Gloom
I am a onion
Many layers
Some love me
But get too close
And I will make you cry
Smash the mirror
Or face what is looking back at you

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Motionless

How can we ever
Move forward
If we
Live in the past
Baffled
At how we
Continue
To put the same numbers
Into the equation
But act surprised
When the calculator
Reads the same answer
In order for us
To overcome
We need to move
From the box
That surrounds
And grow

(c) Steve Logan 2010
All Rights Reserved

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Breakup Poem

First off


I’d like to apologize

For things that are about to be said

Just know

This has been on my mind for a long time

The idea of leaving you bouncing around in my head



I remember a time

When I used to get up

And couldn’t wait to hear from you

Now I walk around

Wondering how you find a way to

Twist things around to make

Any wrong my fault



Doesn’t take much these days

You’re easily detached

Guess you have thoughts of

Other men on your mind



If you can’t see

All that I do for you

How I try to make this work

Then you need to get your eyes check

Problems with men of the past

Have made you not want to invest

You emotions



You don’t seem like you want to be here

And if that is the case

You can go

I will not chase someone that doesn’t want to be caught

This isn’t about pride

It’s about me not being able to help you

So I won’t stand in your way

Goodbye my love

(C) Steve Logan
All Rights Reserved

Novel

You’re a treasure


Every day

I make sure I read another chapter

In your book

The more I read

The more I am intrigued

The more beautiful you are

The more I fall in love with you

Sometimes the story is painful

But then it is followed by things

That warm my heart

And touch my soul

The narration

Never gets old

I don’t bother to count the pages

But they keep multiplying

I guess this means

We still have more to write in this book my love

Anchor

If I say a few words to you
Would you listen?

And not just hear



You see I know

When I talk to you

And say sweet things

Being that I have a way with words

You think it’s all game

I want to assure you sweetheart

I mean every word of it

I want to spend the rest of my life with you

Become a family

I’m not in this

Just to blow your back out

Or use you for you’re money

No

It’s deeper than that

I want your mind

I want to see you every morning when I wake up

I want you to be the one I come home to

After a long day of work

I want to cook dinner together

Give you foot and back massages after you get out of the tub

Lay in bed after our kids are asleep

Reading and discussing bible scriptures



All these things

I ask of you

But before any of that can happen

I ask you

To take my last name

 
(C) Steve Logan 2010
All Rights Reserved

Supernova

My galaxy


Has been

Forever changed

The moment

You entered

My stratosphere

Seems this space air

Became easier to breathe

The stars in this constellation

Now form your face

When you're away from me

I wish on them

In hope that ruler

Of my heart returns soon

(C) Steve Logan  2010
All Rights Reserved

2nd Chances

What have I


Gotten

Myself

Into?



Everything I think that

We

Have crossed over to

The love zone

It seems

You find a reason

To pull away from me

I know I did you wrong

But that was then

And this is now

I am a changed man

Do you see it?



When you agreed

To take me back

I don’t think

You did it

Just to put me through hell

But it seems that all I get from you



If you forgive me

Then do just that

Not saying erase the past



I love you

And want you forever

But you’re pushing me away

(C) 2010 Steve Logan
All Rights Reserved

Are You Lonesome?

Do you miss me?


The nights we used to lay together

The way I used to rub your stomach until you went to sleep

How I would ease out

The bed

Not to be sneaky but to give you more time to rest

How I would have dinner

Waiting for you

After you came home from doing God knows what

House cleaned

Bath water ran

Are you Lonesome?



The way I would

Whisk you out of the tub

Like you were a child

Dry you off

Lotion your body

And console you

On your long day at work

Are You Lonesome?



How about

The way I would let you use me

As your punching bag

Puppet

Fool

Whatever you felt like during our “relationship”

Are You Lonesome?



The way you acted

Using me as a circus monkey

Wanting me to jump through hoops for you

When I did more than I should

Foolish of me

But I walked away with my head held high

You Deserve To Be Lonesome



© Steve Logan 2010

All Rights Reserved

Stand Strong

Never
Will they
Be able to silence us
We are strong
In spirit
Strong
In our mission
To reshape this world
To move away from the hate
On to more love
But not the kind
That you need a latex glove
The kind of love
That you have
For a fellow human
The mean mugs
I get when I speak
Just be friendly
And you stare at me
As if
I just spat
In your face
Ignorance
Has run amok
Together
We can all be one
Stand Strong

(C) Steve Logan 2010
All Rights Reserved

Khalil

My son
I love you

I don't get to
See you as much as
I would like
But the world is not as dark
And my heart warms
When I do see
Your face

A broken home
Mommy and daddy
Couldn't make it work
Even though
All the trying
Doesn't make me love you less
We share the same blood
You are a part of me
I owe you so much
For the joy you have brought me
The countless times
You have saved me from myself

My hero

(C) 2010 Steve Logan

Me

You see me
The 100 watt smile
That I give off
The jokes I tell
But you
Have
No idea
From the people I've hurt
To the ones that have
Loved me so hard
That it caused them great pain
The mirror I look into
Most of the cracks
Have been repaired
But they are still
Visible to the eye
As a reminder
Of the failures
From yesterday

(C) 2010 Steve Logan
All Rights Reserved

Sunday

On this day
I stand
Before you
A new man
Free
Of the chains of my past
The Holy Spirit has come for me
At last
I ask
That you only
Judge me off of
What I do today

(c) Steve Logan 2010
All rights reserved

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The Zone

Can we coexist?
In a way
That is different
From what we hoped?

Is it even worth
Holding on to?

Going from lovers
To friends
Is not ideal
But it appears
Fate had other plans for us

The love I have for you is great

But I am not
“In love”
With you
Maybe one day
I will fall
As always
If I can’t help you
I swear I won’t
Stand in your way

© 2010 Steve Logan
All rights reserved

Life

Don't take it
For granted
Its not always
All its
Cracked
Up to be
With every day
A change
Is brought about

(c) Steve Logan
All Rights Reserved

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Thoughts

Suicide
Once was
My course of action
Not caring that
I would end up in hell for it
Or my loved ones
Reaction

But now
A new day has down
I stand in a different place
I wake up
Just to see the smile
On my son’s face

After years of searching for love
Has it finally found me?
From an unsuspecting person
The thought of her
Potentially crushing my heart in pieces
Makes me fear of love
Worsen

All money
Isn’t good money
But what if that money will help me
Help another?
I would give up all the riches of this world
Just to restore health
To my mother

© 2010 Steve Logan
All Rights Reserved

Blind Spot

Vision is blurry
One word to describe the current mood
Scary

I put pen to paper
So if this is
My final writing
I want you all to know
That I died like I lived
Fighting

A man standing alone
Facing the impending doom
I turn off my phone
So not to be disturbed
And somehow calls still got through
So I broke into pieces
Where’s the broom?

I know longer have
Ideological thoughts
I feel like a
Nomad

Issues with my father
I want him to answer for his sins
But it falls
On that man

Dreams of finally finding a wife
Rushing home after work
Eating dinner with the kids
Then its lights out and the door is closed

Our bodies kiss
As my heart feels like it will explode
From ecstasy
I never thought a woman
Outside of momma
Could bring out the best in me
I get up with the sun rise
Leaving her a note
Saying
“See you later”

Her favorite breakfast cooked
On a tray beside the bed
I grab her car keys
Go clean it up
Change the oil
Fill up the tank all
Before returning home

She hugs and kisses telling me I’m the best
In the back of my mind I wonder
What will she do next
To put me through a test

Back into the world again
I go visit the old guard
Wisdom in their words
They have forgotten more
Then I will ever know

My mom smiles
As she tells me
“You did good”
All I ever wanted was her approval

Khalil calls me
I tell him I love him
I’ll pick you up tomorrow from school son
Be looking for me

I think how on the way home
As street lights guide my path
I have lived a charmed life
And came a long way
Happiness found me
After I stopped pursing it

Shed light on the dark corners
Blind no more

© 2010 Steve Logan
All Rights Reserved

Contingency Plan

It doesn’t
Make me proud to write this
Knowing that you
Gave your all to me
While I was still holding back

The biggest hurdle
With love
Is believing
That once you fall
Someone
Will be there
To catch you

So I strung
You along
Loose ends hung

Saying I was in love with you
When I was still
Out playing like
I was single
Being a typical man
One girl to the next
Just want to mingle

Love is a chess board
And you showed me
Checkmate baby

Best laid plans
Go
To waste


© 2010 Steve Logan

Name Game

She tells me
I am her dream man
The perfect guy
I tell her I am
Just a mere mortal
Knowing in the back of my head
This will not last
Eyes racing back and fourth
As my attention can’t be held by one
I tell her I love her
Because I mean it
That’s why I will break this off
Suddenly
Not even leaving a “Dear Jane” letter
Its better this way
Rather than have her wait for other shoe to drop
I abandon her
I often say
I will be alone forever
Not by choice per say
But by stupidity
Subconsciously
I find a way to the nearest exit
My convoluted logic
Tells me its better
For her to hate me
Than for me to hurt her

© 2010
All Rights Reserved

Misunderstood

It will take time
To solve the rubix cube
That is me
Complex individual
Passionate
But willing to submit to reasonable logic
Arrogant
But humble
Standoffish loner of the night
Like Batman
But a beacon of shining hope
Ala Superman
Hero mixed with villain
Poet Monday – Saturday
Preacher on Sunday
Soul speaker by God’s gift
Myth destroyer by trade
Momma was more of a saint
Daddy a glorified sinner
Heart is always in the right place
But my mind gets me in and out of jams
A poetic rebel
Underground emcee chip on my shoulder
Size of a bolder used to be a pebble
Adding value to the shock
Master thief picked the lock
So you can never place in your box

© 2010
All Rights Reserved

Breaking Dawn

Sitting on this hill
I see the sun
Peek over the horizon
Another day
Another opportunity
To be great
To erase
I bathe in sun light
Solar rays
Empower me
Strength I need
To face a new beginning
It was
Well worth it
Traveling through
The night
Mark my words
On this day
I will reach new heights

© 2010 Steve Logan
All Rights Reserved

Closure

Hey you
I bet you thought
I was gone forever
Destined
To be a part of the past
The hate
And distain
You must feel for me
Brings me shame
But at some point
The time between
We hadn’t talked
Got to far
A loss for words
……
I am not ready for a woman
Like you
And I realize this now
If I am lucky
When I am ready
My lady will be a fraction of you
Don’t wait up
You deserve better

© 2010 Steve Logan
All Rights Reserved