Untouched Stones

Been learned when you hold them up to high, it just makes the drop worse

Heard stories about how curiosity killed the cat, to bad for that inquisitive feline

Never did I have to go searching for the acme anvil, it always dropped on my head from out of the blue

Not a depressing individual but I know people will lie to protect themselves

Shielding those dark secrets

What you don’t know can’t hurt you

Questions posed

Just because answers are given doesn’t mean I have to ignore the stench of fecal matter lingering

I see you

I refuse to let this happen to me again!

I will not give me heart up to someone just for them to hurt me

Love is a battlefield

So as we hover above earth on the war world I am doing everything I can to preserve life

Ducking, dodging….tucked rolls with my heart firmly clinched in my hands

I blow the air lock; I would rather die to sacrifice my love again on someone that is unworthy

Found what I was looking for

But it doesn’t matter

Not like I am going to leave

I’m a graduate of the Bobby Womack School of heartbreak

I’m in love and I’m hung up

Can’t help it

I love her and she seemly loves me, or maybe she is just the best actress I’ve ever met

Getting to the point that I think about her stepping out on me even when we hit the mattress

Gotta smh at myself

While she is probably lol’n at me when my back is turned

I’m not perfect but I’m worth it……I thought you were perfect until past sins surfaced….

My heart is crying tears that refuse to reach my eyes

Conditioned myself a long time ago to embrace the fact that relationships are full of shit

Though I continue to take chances I’m not as reckless as I was before

Psychologically I am battered and bruised….just look my sores have developed sores

Illusions of what we could’ve been

Delusions of grander of a life I will never know

I am not cut for the cloth that can sustain healthy interactions with others past a pre determined amount of time

I thought I had finally gotten past this

….actually meant it when I told people I was doing fine

That turned out to be a lie

© 2013

Steve Logan

No Love

I think about how what we had wasn’t the best I but it was perfect to me and I was good with it

Then we complicated the procedure with all the relationship

She was my best friend then we started screwing

Said it was just for the moment

The single life had beaten us both down

Tired of playing the games and wanted to satisfy sexual needs without the hassle of meeting someone new

Put it down so good on one another that the thought of officially being together slowly made its way into our minds

The door was open

What was once in the back of our minds had made it to the front

The first thing I thought of in the morning was her

And she thought of me

Sent “Good morning baby” text messages concurrently

No titles would be given

But sometimes you just want to feel like you belong

Not that you’re a possession, but more than just a piece of the puzzle

Initial attraction is always the catalyst

Eventually want to encompass all senses of that person’s affection

She got tired of the run around

Said I had forgotten our friendship

We no longer had deep conversations anymore

Just me kissing and undressing her as she talked about the ups and downs of her life

I had let myself get lost in the sauce

Downgraded her from one of my best friends to Miss New Booty

Obtained another notch on my bed post but the risk was higher than the reward

Now no love is to be found

Lost it all

Lost her…..

Lost my one true love…

-S. Logan

2012

Ordinary Love

Can’t even look you in the face

Don’t want to deal with the shame of what I let go

So I choose to stay as far away as possible

You always were my angel so the space is your halo

I could just say sorry, apologize for the wrong I’ve done

What would that do? 

You wouldn’t believe me anyway

Remember the last time that I could you this was the last time I was going to do you wrong?

I wouldn’t expect you to think this time I’ve changed

Still been keeping tabs on you through mutual friends that don’t treat me with distain due to the way I treated you

I admit both times I was a shell of a man

Love isn’t a game

Had no right to play with your heart

Wasn’t even worthy to hold it up

Hands got shaky

Blame it on the drugs they had me geeking

Nerves on the ends of my fingers started tweaking

One of the words most beautiful jewels in the palms of my hands

Many told me it resembled a precious ruby when held to the light

Wouldn’t you know I had to go and fuck things up just like I always do

Third time’s the charm but I’ll spare myself the disappointment I won’t try to invade what I am sure is now the fortress that is your heart

Shopping at the store of the ones who have had love and lost it

And everything in here is in my size

-S. Logan

2012

Crescendo

I don’t want to waste your time anymore than I already have

I have no plans for you

I don’t know even know what I want in a woman

Let alone what to do with a good one like you

Stop waiting for me

I’m not worth it

I know this may hurt but nothing can compare to the years I’ve played with your heart

Release therapy

Addition by subtraction

After all this time of playing cat and mouse

Letting go of this sham what we call a love is our only course of action

Perhaps I should’ve made it official with you back then

Remember when?

We first met?

I wasn’t ready still had to get my whoring out of the way

Now I’m sitting here a different man today

Gone are my needs to always have a woman any woman laying in the bed with me

I’ve grown…but in all the time of just finding Ms. Fat Booty, I’ve neglected figuring out the traits that I want in a soul mate

My fault

My bad

You only wanted me for close to a decade

Now I am ready to turn my back on everything we’ve ever had

Don’t wait for me please

Turn and walk away

This time don’t look back……

-S. Logan

2012