No Love

I think about how what we had wasn’t the best I but it was perfect to me and I was good with it

Then we complicated the procedure with all the relationship

She was my best friend then we started screwing

Said it was just for the moment

The single life had beaten us both down

Tired of playing the games and wanted to satisfy sexual needs without the hassle of meeting someone new

Put it down so good on one another that the thought of officially being together slowly made its way into our minds

The door was open

What was once in the back of our minds had made it to the front

The first thing I thought of in the morning was her

And she thought of me

Sent “Good morning baby” text messages concurrently

No titles would be given

But sometimes you just want to feel like you belong

Not that you’re a possession, but more than just a piece of the puzzle

Initial attraction is always the catalyst

Eventually want to encompass all senses of that person’s affection

She got tired of the run around

Said I had forgotten our friendship

We no longer had deep conversations anymore

Just me kissing and undressing her as she talked about the ups and downs of her life

I had let myself get lost in the sauce

Downgraded her from one of my best friends to Miss New Booty

Obtained another notch on my bed post but the risk was higher than the reward

Now no love is to be found

Lost it all

Lost her…..

Lost my one true love…

-S. Logan

2012

Falling In Love with a Angel

You get me high

Make believe I have wings

Never had an experience quite like the one I have when I am with you

Everybody says you have control over my mind

They could never understand the bond we’ve forged

I’d do anything for you

Lie for you

Steal for you

Even got my ass whooped a few times for you

Hallucinations overtake my eyes

Mirages of you telling me to come near even when you’re not remotely close to location

Need a compass

A zeta beam can teleport me to your exact latitude longitude and we can pick up where we left off

Loving so good I had to get it in vials just to keep my cravings for you at bay when I can’t have you

Your joint is a killer

I want to dip my happy stick in you

…..Now it’s wet

Toe tag me baby

I’m down for the count

Numb in the proceeding moments following our encounters

Intoxicated

Staggering

Unsteady

Slurring my speech even

Friends asking me why eyes are bloodshot

The memories of you alone are enough to make me lose balance on command

Get it too good might have to call the EMTs

Remember last time?

I was laying in the middle of the kitchen floor having convulsions because you gave me a high dose of your love

Putting my hands on you

Normally I’m not aggressive but I don’t want you to go

Unusual type of love indeed

Nothing holy about it

You’ve just an account of addict

Angel dust

S. Logan

2012

This Dog’s Life

I’m tired of avoiding what looks back every time I stare in the mirror

Terrified to admit the reason why my love life is in shambles is due to my own whorish ways

Well there is still breath in this body of mine

Never too late to change

I’ve been in and out of kennels

Some even left me on the door step of abandoned animal’s shelters

Those who were foolish enough to try to take me home

I jumped over the fence and ran around terrorizing the neighborhood

When I tell you I’ve lived it’s not a game

My life has been anything but sheltered

Now I’m standing out here looking for some cover from the shit storm that has begun to rain

Not even me giving the sad puppy dog eyes will allow you to let me back in

All you can think of is the last time and how I refused to become house trained

If you look very closely you can still see the stains that I left on the carpet

The dirt that I’ve done remains, no matter how much scrubbing has been done

© 2012

S. Logan

Fragrance

I've tired to stay away
But every time I think I have finally broken free from her spell
I see her
My heart does things that it has never done with any other
Stay
This is the one God made for you...

Then I begin to second guess
Had this feeling before
All it lead to was hurt feelings and friends turning into enemies

Not with her

She is different

I can feel it in my soul

"Go to her"

I hear the voice in my head getting louder

I am edging closer

The magnet that is her won't turn me loose

Who am I kidding?

I wouldn't be able to escape even if I wanted too

This is....

This is.....

Where I am supposed to be 

I have reached the destination on my journey of love

Now we embark on another path

One as husband and wife.....

I take you be the latest, greatness addition to my life

(C) 2012

S. Logan

The Fall

The ups

The downs

We try to make the square peg fit into the circle shaped hole

But to no avail

Hopeless romantics

Star crossed lovers

Too afraid of the single life to admit we’re not right for each other

We rise

We fall

Trying so hard to make things work

All resources have been exhausted

The battlefield is littered with casualties….of the war that we’ve raged on….soldiers of an unfortunate love

Playful back and forth morphs into hateful volleys being lobbed over the net

Stay

Or

Go

You call me a liar and say you will never trust me

Every time I break your wall down it seems like I do something else the very next moment to make you rebuild it stronger

Finger pointing

Let’s play the blame game

I feel as if you will always hold the past over my head

Evil, vindictive how can you take me back just to do me like this?

Brought back to life

Only to see the knife being shoved into my heart

Now we are at an end road

What to do?

We no longer know each other

Part of me wonders if we ever did

Well ummm

There’s a but

That’s not totally true

We both lied to one another

Chasing our tails

The dog has come back out to play

“Bark like a dog” *bark bark*

“Bark like a BIG dog!!”  *WOOF WOOF*

It was my decision to jump over the fence

Go out and roam

Serves me right that when I came back my house was torn down

Guess I pissed you off that much huh?

Reform project

This time the foundation of which we construct on will be stronger

I’ve changed

You can see it in my actions

But the divide is still there

Barriers continually in the way

I am sick and tired of you tearing me down and acting as if I should deserve it

How could you expect me to stay?

You keep treating me as if I am a nuisance to you…I’m no longer needed here so I begin to stray

Oh now you want me back

Telling me how you only argue with me so furiously because you have such strong feelings

If this is love then I would’ve lived a better life having not ever known it

Let’s call it quits….time for the union that we have to split

So it’s over

We go our separate ways

Delete friendships via the world wide web

And erase phone numbers

Though the smiles we shared and subsequent moans and swapping of lust still pop in my mind

You give me a feeling like I’ve never felt before

I exposed myself fully to you and only you… I knew I could trust you..you weren’t deceitful like those whores

I miss what we had

Even though it was bad

Guess that’s why I want it back…I’ve grown accustomed to be being sad

© 2012

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Name Game

She tells me I’m her dream man
The perfect guy
I tell her I’m just a mere mortal….. Knowing in the back of my head
This will not last
Eyes racing back and forth
As my attention can’t be held by one
I tell her I love her

Because I mean it
That’s why I will break this off
Suddenly
Not even leaving a “Dear Jane” letter
Its better this way
Rather than have her wait for other shoe to drop
I abandon her
Often say
I will be alone forever
Not by choice per say
But by stupidity
Subconsciously
I find a way to the nearest exit
My convoluted logic
Tells me it’s better
For her to hate me
Than for me to hurt her

© 2012
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Center Fielder

I’m tired of roaming the field of play

Out stretching, the ability to make the most spectacular catches….until I hear the screams on the grass I lay

All star…first ballot hall of famer

Homerun champ

Knocking them out the park

Who can stop me but me?

But a time comes when you know to hang ‘em up

Retire on top

Leave the game walking and not in wheel chair they say

Never had aspirations to be the player that stayed a season long than he should’ve

I am walking away from it all…..with her as my wife

© 2012

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Boundaries

Started out of friends

Yeah friends…..that’s what we’ll call it

Lighthearted flirting

Back and forth

Playing it cool

Even though we both were hot due to standing so close to the torch

Classic romance

Romeo and Juliet

Forbidden lovers

You with him and me with her

Circle is close

We both know each other’s mate

I say I want to meet you just to talk over coffee

But in my mind it’s a date

Remember that time you told me about having a dream about me?

Said it was just a kiss

Knew you were lying

You’re eyes and overall uneasiness told me the whole story

Now you want to keep me at arm’s length

Giving intel on your feelings about me

Telling ole girl sorry

Too late now we’ve already crossed the boundary 

(C) 2012

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Love Junkie

Needle in the arm

Slumped in the chair

Heart jumping through my chest

Pulsating

Then slowing to a creep

Thump…..thump……thump……….thump………thump

Am I dying?

Is this how I finally go out?

Something so good….makes me feel so bad

Thump….Thump….

You’re my gift and curse

The reason why I live and the grounds for my death

Thump _________________________________

© 2012

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