Cry For Help

The world to live for but that’s not enough

Thinking about ending it all

The narcissist in me wants me to commit the single most selfish act a person can

 TAKE THE PAIN WAY!

I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE

I sit here almost in tears

Errors in judgment

Eventual demise is what I am headed towards

Save my ship

Self worth dwindling

Mind is elsewhere

My faith is wavering

For the first time in my life I am admitting

…..I need help

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Sticks n' Stones

Words hurt


Sometimes more

Than we care to admit

Bullying

Isn’t always physical

The verbal aspect

Has longer lasting effects

Sinking deep into the mind

If you bother

To get the know the person

Behind the eyes

A tortured soul

You will find

How long can you

Keep this to yourself?

Pretending like

Everything is alright

Inside

Fires rage

Burning

No one makes it through hell

Without some kind of reminder

Flesh wounds maybe

Or perhaps

The nightmares that same to never end

I think of the ones

Young and old

That have taken their precious life

Over what others have said

I pray your soul finds peace





© 2010

Forgotten

Tonight I am giving you the reader more insight into my life and the places I have been. I've attempted suicide twice. Once in 2003 and again in 2005. This poem takes me back to those times when I felt like I couldn't share anything with anyone.

Seems like
The world
Thinks
I am
Dead
In the
Figurative sense
I am
Haven't been myself
For a while now
Maybe I gave up
Too soon
Tired of others
Plotting it
So I brought about
My own doom
Suicidal thoughts
Who could ever imagine
The one
That shouldered
All the hopes
And dreams
Of the family
Could fall victim
To the devil

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