God’s Laughter

They say God only takes the best

So until you’ve fulfilled your purpose on this earth you’re here with the rest

We miss you brother

You brought tears to our eyes for years

But now we shed a different kind as we mourn your passing

Guess God had other plans…wanted you in that pantheon with the other greats

If anything we’re the selfish ones wishing you were still here

While you sit perched on your cloud gazing around saying, “this is what I’ve been missing”

Go get your rest in until we all meet again

We send you off with the biggest round of applause you’ve ever received

This is to your new life up above as the physical has come to an end.

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Kings & Queens

Kings…Queens

Gods…Goddesses

Man…woman

Started off a boy and girl

As with most love stories

You have the bullshit that comes

He say

She say

Telling her how he wants to test drive the car before marriage

Telling him how she likes to be spoiled and likes to live a certain lifestyle

Smirking at her saying, “Girl I ain’t no damn trick and ain’t never been a simp!”

Moving her neck and waving hands in the air at him yelling, “All you niggas out here now a day are lames!”

King speaks to her like a peasant… “Lil momma stay in yo lane”

Queen lets him know royalty shouldn’t be addressed as such… “You need to come better boo if you want to be with me.  See I’m a real lady so to impress me you have to come with more than a nice mouth piece and hard dick.”

He cracks a smile

She smiles back

Could this be the start of something?

Something new……

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The return

Well well well look who remembered the blog that started it all.  First let me apologize to all the readers of this blog, I've been neglected it really bad but coming today will be another installment of "Will Write 4 Food" as always I hope you enjoy it.  Love and light folks.

Closure

Let’s just face facts we didn’t work

I could sit here and say unsavory things about you

And Lord knows you could slander my name

But what will that prove?

Only showing two of acting s if we were still youths

Beefing back and forth

My actions were just in my eyes

And your ways seems right in yours

From the way I broke your heart

Setting off this vicious cycle we now have going on

The power struggle

Maneuvering for the top position

When I stopped that’s when you showed emotion

And vice versa

Revenge on one another

Hurting you then trying to heal the wounds I caused in the blink of an eye

Soul mates to mortal enemies

Laughing and being lovey dovey

To exchanging mean mugs and not speaking

We’re doomed to just be what we are at the present moment

Hardly talking

Dry text messages exchanged here and there

The fire that burns in my heart for you has to be extinguished

It’s my fault you don’t love me like I want you

After all I’ve done my eyes are less hazy when it comes to my wrong

The black and white is distinguished

I hurt you like you hurt me

But at what cost?

I poisoned you by that time I was falling as the venom was already in my veins

Hate to close a door but there’s nothing left for me here anymore

I apologize for any tears I’ve made run out of those big brown eyes

Keep cultivating hoping that a new us will sprout

Maybe it’s my fault I keep manufacturing these things with you so I can have something to write about

If it was mean to then we never would’ve been broke right?

To be perfectly honest that thought of you walking down isle as my wife keeps me up at night

No time for marriage

No time for me

Vengeance wasn’t mine to seek but I did it anyway

No place for that the universe will right itself

I need to get over you

No point in rushing to the next girl

Better for me analyze myself

Stop repeating mistakes

Time for me…….I need to take

When I am alone and think back on it all

You were right to leave me

This is the man I am

And this man isn’t good enough for you

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Tap out (short, sweet and sensual)

I don't know what give up means
Me?  Throw in the towel?
Never
I have this obsession with being the best
Want you to relive this encounter
Like your favorite throwback being played

Just stop fighting
You can never win
Though you do look cute as you struggle
Overloading you with my love

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The one that got away

There’s this girl out there

That I’m madly in love with

And I am sure at one point in time she felt the same way about me

That was before the hurt

Before the pain

Before the betrayal

Before the deceit

You didn’t run away

I loosened my grip

Letting you down

The man that finally made you believe in love

Destroyed it forever

You always told me I scared you

Never knew why that was

Could it be that you knew I was the one for you

And if so maybe you felt I was going to hurt you

That’s why the guard stayed up

Chipped away at it just enough to see the why you heart pulsed for me

Didn’t change me

No not all because I still let you go

This is the story of the one that got away

After talking to my back for so long

Not having time for her she finally decided to stray

Now I sit on this bed empty, cold bed

For hours on end

Thinking about you

Writing about what we used to do

Mist in my eyes every time paper meets the pen

You were my glory

Then I had to go and sin

Not only have you written the final words in the chapter that was mine

But burned the book

No trace that I was ever a part of your life

Picked the lock on the cage

Now your smiling living without me

The perfect life, no strife

Remember how I would always get on your nerves

Always saying the wrong things

Causing you to pull away from the fire

My love the apple of my eye

My one true desire

This is the story of the one I let go

Did all the talking in the world but my actions never did show

You’re not thinking about me but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss you though

Faced with the rest of my life

Stressing over how I will never find someone like you

That gave me the feeling like you did

Made my heart skip beats at the thought of you

Made me smile just from hearing or seeing your name

Had me shaking from the sound of your voice or the caress of your hands

Sounds silly but I still believe in us

I’ve been talking to God and he told me just keep trying

He has us in each other’s future plans

I know we can never forget the bad times

Here’s to hoping we can see pass it to the love

One final make up

No more break ups

You’re my anchor you held me down

But still lifted me up

This is the end of the story

The one that got away is gone but not to worry

As long as I still have breath in my body

I will get her back

The one that makes me swoon

My angel, my peace, my  April, my May, my June

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Right Above It

Lord I’m begging for you to save my soul, lately I’ve become so cold…watching myself die when I look in the mirror the reflection is starting to look like the me of the old

I keep combating against the urge to become what I once renounced

Smile is rarely seen these days

Walking around on edge, belligerent…ready to set any wrong doer a blaze

Satan get back

Don’t try to overtake my soul

It belongs to the Lord

And even though I don’t always live my life in His image, He is the ruler of all

…Of all

Never let me down

Please don’t let me fall as I hang on for dear life

Feeling my fingers slipping

Went from right above it to now living in it

Will I be able to climb out of the abyss? 

Guess we shall see

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Welcome to heartbreak

Feels like I’m waking up from a bad dream

Everything is tangible…..just because I can see doesn’t mean things are what they seem

The ground under me is shaky

This isn’t reality

My heart isn’t there

Just red pieces of paper lumped together

I no longer know what it’s like to feel

Been living in suspended animation for years now

Can’t remember the last time I loved

When you tell me the affection you have for me…I may need my prescription adjusted because even with my glasses on I can see

What makes you different from the others

The ones that used me

Financially, emotionally, mentally and even once physically abused me

So you can keep tell me that but it goes in one ear and out the other….

You can’t be real

I don’t care about what you want from me

Your needs are none of my concern

I’ve given enough of myself  and still have yet to gain the love of another

So from this point on I only take

Thief in the night

Give me your heart

I’ll do with it what I please and air mail it back to you once I’m done toying with it

Turnabout’s fair play

Don’t tell me I’m not being fair when you haven’t done anything to cultivate this relationship

The sweet flowers of passion bare no petals and stems have slumped over, falling out of the vase

Reminisce of what was

I think of you

And my blood pressure lowers

The rage has subsided

I see you standing on the balcony

Your hair flowing in the night wind

Moonlight complimenting your skin

Frown turns into a smile

An embrace follows

Clinching you so tight I may cut up circulation

Lifting you up in the air spinning you around celebrating how I found the lover that started it all

So happy…to be with you again…a second chance to do things the right way…how they should’ve went the first time

So I toss you over the rail and watch you plummet to the busy intersection

Splat!!  Hello and goodbye

HEARTBREAK

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Just to get by

This morning I woke up

Feeling like not living but still I got up

Thinking about my life

My child

My family

My job

Then I started drinking and kept going

As I head into oblivion

Not looking back

I’m gone…..I’m gone

Every day it gets harder for me to find the will to get out of bed… Negative thoughts floating in my head…reflecting on things my sub conscious has said

Just to get by…..I’m ready to ski mask it, run up and just take what I want

I have to make it, by any means nesscary

Stomach rumbles

Drink another couple gallons of water

Have another bowl of instant oatmeal

Whatever works

It’s people out there doing more with less

I know I can make it through this

My God wouldn’t put me up against an unbeatable opponent

I will pass this test

Anything to get by

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Freaks n' Geeks

She’s attracted to my beautiful mind

Strange how things change given enough time

Remember when being intelligent didn’t make you the ladies choice

They would never listen when I was talking about my favorite but still mesmerized by my deep voice

The spell has been placed

Never plan on taking it off

Now she’s playing chess with me, having stimulating conversation about world events…..even playing a game or two of Black Ops

All before a night of mind blowing sex

Nothing like being in tune with your partner…..connecting without the aid of verbiage

Judgment unclouded but I feel high

And if you were give me a drug test not a trace would show in the screen

But when she shows up on the scene I get inebriated thinking about what’s between her thighs

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Pennies

Gather them up

Digging in between the sofa cushions

Maybe I can get enough to be able to actually afford something off the dollar menu today

The never ending struggle of life

A fight to the finish and even after you’re finished you have to think of what you left your seeds with

Working poor pay check to pay check making just enough to keep a rough over my head and gas to make it back to the salt mines

Walking in I sing to myself

“I’ve been sweating on this slave ship and I ain’t made shit!”

I went to school for this?

Just to have student loan companies that double as loan sharks come after me

One way or another they will get a return on investment….even if it all seems for not

I pray for financial windfalls but then I feel guilty asking for it since I have my health and the health of my loved ones

That’s what they tell me anyway

Sounds like false hope to me as I look at the low fuel light when I am still 20 plus miles away from home

Praying just to make it to my destination

I stopped crying over it…..this is how my life was supposed to be

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When it all falls down

Everything is always good in the beginning, that’s why you even start up something with that someone

Making the gaffe many of us do

Thinking it will always be like this

Nothing last forever I was told

When it all falls down

We discover how little we actually knew each other

Foundations built on words exchanged during pillow talk, acting as a base made of sand..Though it may stand and look appealing once you place something on top of it eventually it will fall to pieces because nothing ever should’ve been constructed with it

When it all falls down

Left with nothing but hurt feelings

And antipathy towards one another

YEAH I FUCKED UP BUT NOT LIKE YOU!!

……

Or did I?

Who’s the fool the person that continually lies or the one that consistently believes what their being fed?

Who is more to blame when what we has was once so great but no we leave with nothing

When it all falls down

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Grown & Sexy

I had to put pen to paper, couldn’t get the words to come out verbally…on how to properly pay homepage to this ebony queen

Well built, the sculptor molded you in such a way that nothing could ever be greater

The way you way is graceful, swaying from side to side

Hair flowing….love and silky

You thief!!  The way your skin glows you had to have stolen light directly from the sun

It may not even come back up again but I will be fine with that as long as I can continue to lay eyes on you

The kind of beauty that even a blind man can see

The kind of chocolate that will send taste buds into a craze

Never dined at a café that had a better menu than yours

Don’t know when or if I will get to see another spread like this again

So I better eat all I can since it’s on the house

You got your hooks in me and I don’t want them out

You got me….fiending for you like Pookie for another rock

You’re the drug and I am the addict

Don’t need or want rehab

If they try to send me I will break free to be with you

Like’s you and I wants you

Grown & Sexy

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Pretty Brown Eyes

I remember it like it was yesterday

Staring into them

The everlasting tunnel of love, how no matter how much a knock down drag out fight we just had once our eyes connected I was putty in your hands

Am I mistaken for thinking that after all the wrong I’ve done that there is still a spark there for me?

Delusions of grandeur that you will one day forgive me and will still be my wife

Those other girls aren’t you

Being friends is fine and we still have that spark there that makes me believe that the fireplace that housed our love can once again be stocked with logs and burn for eternity

Everything I ever wanted in a woman

I ran you off not once but twice

Third time’s the charm but you will never come back to me for fear I will do your heart further harm

Those other girls don’t stand a chance when put up against you

Afraid to tell you how I feel

Never been afraid of rejection but if you would tell me to give up on the fairy tale that is us I would be crushed…emotionally flattened……love tramped on

Tried them and had to learn the hard way there is no one like you

So this is me saying I will never set free the thought of “us” even though there is currently not an “us” I know that you and I were meant to be and one day I will stare into your Pretty Brown Eyes at the alter.

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Feeback

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Someone Like You

Chemistry with is still marvelous

Even though you’re no someone else wife

I want you to know that I plan on adoring you for life

Just when I think I am ready to move on thoughts of you

Come out the blue

Epiphany

I presume I should give up on it all

Can’t even find someone that is worthy of being mentioned in the same sentence as you

Fallen victim to my inability to forget

I remember the way it felt as our lips touched

How the moments of our passion shared left me distorted for days after

How it felt to know that I had finally lost you

What am I to do now?

Live this life single-handedly

Not fair to marry someone knowing they are second best

Or perhaps I could…..maybe….someday find someone like you

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Black Book

Reads like a novel

Tails of my past

I even made notes by certain names

Speaking of names never used the real ones just in case someone stumbled upon my hidden treasure

Cute aliases that remind me of them

Leaving the outside none the wiser

Every now and then I get a little lonely

Instead of trying to find someone new

I prefer to just stick with the tried and true

Just because we didn’t make it as a couple doesn’t mean we can’t continue to be lovers

No hiding the fact

Our bodies are so in tune with each other

We have great chemistry

See you and I want to rip all your clothes off immediately

Inhibitions out the window

As you spread eagle I am maneuvering inside you

Vocal exercises by you now

Doing a crescendo

I can’t deny

No reason for me to lie

I still want you as my woman

The way you used to make me feel high

But I will take this

Only time we don’t argue is when we’re getting into things

Even if it isn’t mine to the outside world

You and I both know how only we can make each other feel

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