Calling All Angels

Selfish of me really to wish you were still here and I could see your face

Knowing that you’re not coming back….gone to a better place

Only comfort I find is knowing that you’re surrounded by God’s grace



As a breathe deep

I still find myself asking why even though I know I shouldn’t question it

Acts done by a higher power and rather or not they make sense to me is unimportant

He decided it was time for you to go home



People ask me why I never speak about you anymore but they don’t know the burden I still feel

Wish it was me instead of you

Never thought of how this world would be with you gone

Young never reached certain goals you set out for yourself but you attained perfection

So your soul left your body and float upwards

Our Lord sent the finest convoy to escort you to him



Wish heaven would’ve waited



If only for me to tell you one last time

I loved you

If only for you to see your child again

I know how much you loved him

Things were falling into place



Heaven can we get a stay before departure?



Guilt is what I’m feeling knowing I wasn’t there for you

Not like I should’ve been

And I often wonder

In your last fleeting moments of life as you knew it

Did you pray that I would come save you?

Scope you up and rush you to a doctor to heal you?

And when you realized once again I wasn’t going to show up when you needed me the most

As you laid in the car air bag deployed, blood soaked clothes, body getting cold

Did you hate me?



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