Just Because

I’ve learned love from you

More than I knew I could love anyone outside of my child

You’ve been in the trenches with me

Stood beside me even when you had ever right to leave

Assisted me with battling my demons

Never known anyone that gave more than took

Unfathomable, a life with you

Feast or famine with this one

I can’t go back to being your best friend again

Things fall apart I know but as long as we’re not fighting one another to stay rather we should be using our combined strength to keep the outside at bay

I finally know what it’s like to be in love

….thank you for loving me

© 2013

Steve Logan

The Vent

I'm struggling to keep my sanity
Finally became best friends with God but in doing that the devil became a mortal enemy
I sit alone shaking trying to regain control
Having trouble focusing
Lord I think I'm finally losing it
I'll be the reason my own greatest fear comes true
Loved ones alienated
My mind incarcerated
Soul incinerated
My life abbreviated
My self I hate it....
Confessions of a maniac depressant
Ticking time bomb
The countdown has begun

(C) 2013
Steve Logan

The Bite Marked Heart

Glassed over look has replaced my normal intense stare

While smiling thinking of the moments we've shared

Each time is better than the last

What did you do to me?

Did you put something in my food?

I am caught in the rapture of you…..of love

My life has never been this good

Air is sweeter

Sun is brighter

The nights are not as dark and cold as they were once before

You are safe in my grasp

Bitten by you

My heart is now in overdrive

I see the light at the end of the tunnel

And my wife is standing at the end….waiting

You won’t have to wake too long for me baby, I am on my way.

Steve Logan

©2013

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There Ain’t No Grave

I’ve walked around thinking that I was living the life

When in actuality I would’ve been better off dead

No this isn’t another suicide poem or one my ramblings of how I hate my life

To the contrary this me being reborn

Releasing my past

Laying down in the graveyard at night and awakening not only in a new day but with a new outlook on life

As the warmth of daybreak covers me I hear trumpets sounding

A call to arms

I stand waiting to glide into the sky

My wings have not sprouted yet

I am late for the sky….

Heaven has been right above me for years and seems like it is close but a long walk

Am I ready for the journey?

No one said this would be easy but then again anything worth having comes with a price

Is it really that much to ask for me to give up these worldly aspirations?

The reward is higher than the risk

For I will have eternal life

Rather than continuing to take out payday loans on my soul

Because when judgment day comes I will need to pay in full, no installments, no written off accounts

I am ready

Do with me what you will Lord

I am yours

© 2013

Steve Logan

Sunshine

The darkness no longer wins

As the clouds begin to break as the rays eradicate the gloom

I wave goodbye to my dark side and the feeling of impending doom

Smile is genuine these days; I’m showing more of it

Laugh is hearty now; I’m bellowing it out at every turn

My light has returned

Exhilarated to awaken in a new day

Elated to walk in Christ’s way

Gleaming through the eyes

Head to sky

Lord thank you for life

-Steve Logan

© 2013

Untouched Stones

Been learned when you hold them up to high, it just makes the drop worse

Heard stories about how curiosity killed the cat, to bad for that inquisitive feline

Never did I have to go searching for the acme anvil, it always dropped on my head from out of the blue

Not a depressing individual but I know people will lie to protect themselves

Shielding those dark secrets

What you don’t know can’t hurt you

Questions posed

Just because answers are given doesn’t mean I have to ignore the stench of fecal matter lingering

I see you

I refuse to let this happen to me again!

I will not give me heart up to someone just for them to hurt me

Love is a battlefield

So as we hover above earth on the war world I am doing everything I can to preserve life

Ducking, dodging….tucked rolls with my heart firmly clinched in my hands

I blow the air lock; I would rather die to sacrifice my love again on someone that is unworthy

Found what I was looking for

But it doesn’t matter

Not like I am going to leave

I’m a graduate of the Bobby Womack School of heartbreak

I’m in love and I’m hung up

Can’t help it

I love her and she seemly loves me, or maybe she is just the best actress I’ve ever met

Getting to the point that I think about her stepping out on me even when we hit the mattress

Gotta smh at myself

While she is probably lol’n at me when my back is turned

I’m not perfect but I’m worth it……I thought you were perfect until past sins surfaced….

My heart is crying tears that refuse to reach my eyes

Conditioned myself a long time ago to embrace the fact that relationships are full of shit

Though I continue to take chances I’m not as reckless as I was before

Psychologically I am battered and bruised….just look my sores have developed sores

Illusions of what we could’ve been

Delusions of grander of a life I will never know

I am not cut for the cloth that can sustain healthy interactions with others past a pre determined amount of time

I thought I had finally gotten past this

….actually meant it when I told people I was doing fine

That turned out to be a lie

© 2013

Steve Logan