Pretty Memories

My nonchalant demeanor won’t let me admit this to the free world

The lack of emotion I show for you is counterfeit

Sitting here finding myself thinking about you once again

Like so many times before

Tried to drink it away to get my mind off the thought of you

Pictorial representations of you with another man and giving him the love that is rightfully mine overflow  

*11:59 pm*

Here comes the loneliness

DOWN WITH LOVE!

It never did love me

Spent time with those that I should’ve never been with only to actually find what has been elusive to me to just turn around and lose it

Cupid is this some cruel joke?

Love, loves everyone but me

Your arrow was a direct hit to my heart

The elation however was short lived

Couldn’t even let me have bliss just for a little longer

Though the miniscule euphoria I encountered was worth the risk I suppose

Even as I felt the second arrow puncture my throat

*2:34 am*

As I lay here

Still fighting it all off

Every time I try to elude and I think I’ve gotten away from what we had

I look up and you’re smiling in my face

It’s sickening that how you mock my love for you but I can’t help but still find something beautiful about that grin

Even as you watch me drown in a pool of my own blood

*4:48 am*

I hear your voice calling out to me yelling “SWIM!  SWIM!”

I reach out for you and it goes right through

That’s what holograms are after all transparent

As I sit up

The blood is gone and my wounds no longer exist

*5:53 am*

The sun light begins to extrude through the blinds

A new day

The first day of the rest of my life

Without you

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Devin

“I’m tired of all this commotion I hear from over there; let me go straighten this out”

Maybe I shouldn’t get involved in this domestic dispute

But how can I just sit by?

Knocking on the door now

“Hey it’s your neighbor man”

As the door opens I have to remind myself to be mindful of what he might have going on

Listen bother man to man I’m not trying to get all up in your business…I know how it is being a black man the things you have to deal with believe you me I understand

However it’s getting tiresome and I’m growing more and more concerned about the noises I hear coming from here

Your girl telling you stop beating her

The kids feet hitting the floor as they run for cover

 As you curse them like there’s no tomorrow

Perhaps you need to lay off the booze, find a better way to release your anger other than laying hands on the defenseless

As he folds his arms and props himself up against the hallway wall I could tell this was about to go somewhere I didn’t want it to

Look before you get hostile with me you should think about what I’m saying before DFS makes a trip to your home to see

Right then it was like someone struck a match

He pushes off the wall edging towards me

I’m not worried at all, I fear no man

Especially one that beats on his family for his short comings

“HOLD ON BROTHER!”

Had to let him know that he didn’t want any part of this war machine

You’re out of your weight class, height and reach advantages on my side

I’m giving you this one last chance so my warning you must heed

Nah small fry continued to engage in this I was contemplating flinging him out the 2^nd floor window

Then I hear wifey telling me to calm down and come back in the house

Almost did it until he had to touch a nerve

“BITCH GO BACK IN THE HOUSE AND LET THIS NIGGA JUMP STUPID!”

Before the words even had time to sink in I was on him like a homeless person on a dropped piece of food

Fist showering him

He must’ve felt like he was being jumped

Apparently junior had not only been taught how to treat a lady but how to speak to one

And I’m just the one that will put a person in their place for disrespecting the queen

Did what his pops should’ve done to prevent this terror from being born

Placing my foot square in his ass, as he tumbled down the stairs

At this point the pummeling seems like a drawn out joke that’s no longer funny

That was until the joke as it appeared was on me

As the police car pulled up and they pulled out the department issues weapons on me

Calling me a menace

Shaking my damn head

Bracelets thrown on my wrist  

Being stuffed into the back of a police car

As the “happy” couple go back upstairs

I was defended the honor of her and her kids

But some prefer poison over an antidote

As I shake my head again this time muttering to myself

“Now ain’t that some shit”

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Finger Pointing

Go ahead cast all the blame on me

I can take it, I can handle the weight

Never been a man that had a problem admitting fault

But I refuse to take the blame for everything

You should be ashamed of yourself for trying to drag me down instead of cleaning out the skeletons in your own closet

Done with caring enough to get angry

Used to be livid with things you would do

Not anymore, reached a point where nothing else is left to say  but goodbye

How would you feel if I tore you down at every turn

Just because I was having a bad day

Hurting the one that only wants to be there for you

Can’t you see I love you girl

I’m not here for my health

Done with arguing it’s becoming tiresome

Quarreling with no resolution and my life it doesn’t improve it

Not anymore,  reached a point where nothing else is left to say  but goodbye

We’re opposing factions at war

When North Korea crossed the demilitarized zone into South Korea arms are drawn

Neither side willing to call a truce

No longer backing down for the common good

Now I fire on sight

You need some counseling babe

This isn’t the way you’re supposed to show love

Stop making me pay for mistakes that I haven’t made

I understand you’re damaged and all I want to do is heal those wounds

Ease the pain

Guess my good intentions are in vain

Done with you, I must move on

There is no longer an us

Not anymore, reached a point where nothing else is left to say but goodbye

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Tic Toc

Incomplete

It’s the way you walk, how you smell, the way keep yourself looking good, the stimulating conversation you give, the laughs we share…..that keep you on my mind, even though we are distant

The day I realized I was in love with you

This succeeded you already having fallen in and out for me

Now I wander around from woman to woman, hoping to recapture what we had

Searching for my missing piece so that I can once again become whole

Feeling like the puzzle of me is about to crumble, foundation shaky, will I make it?  Maybe

Thinking of you being someone else’s wife is enough to drive me to brink of taking my own life

How I can live in the world without sunshine?

Man wasn’t mean to be alone that’s why God gave Adam his queen in Eve

Dreaming of being at church, wedding bells ringing, doves flying, singing and when I lift the veil I see it’s not you and it seems like the cruel joke a nightmare is known to play

Don’t you understand? We were made for each other…..my son you will be the mother and your child I will be the father

Will you ever come back and put me back together?  Place me on a sturdy and secure area of the wall…..only if I know you will be there to catch is when I again fall

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Mjolnir

I wield power with this hammer I was blessed with

I can make your head spin...have you thinking about me when I am miles away

Bring down rain......pour

Have you doing thing you've never done...saying things you've never said

Soon as we step foot in the house….make our way to the bed

Let me go deeper…..read your mind….readjust your spine

Using endearing terms to describe you like:  dazzling, angelic, ravishing, marvelous….you’re not just the everyday run of the mill fine

May I enter your temple?

I wouldn’t ask if I wasn’t sure I was coming right

I am free of disease, come with only one intention and that’s to please

Bestowing magical properties on you

Don’t ever let this moment end

Press harder

Pleasant pressure

My instrument of love has you climaxing in rapid successions……damn is there anything left in you?

Telling me if I keep this up then you will marry me

Make me the happiest man on the planet

Baby don’t threaten me with a good time

Or should I say a blessed life

I just want to make sure you want this and it’s not just the sex making you act in a desired manner

The gates open, I am being pushed out by your love force

Can’t take it?

I told you time and time again not to run

Only makes me want you more

And in this case the prey won’t escape

Overloading you with my love

Plan on making you an addict

Get hooked on me, I will give you a high daily

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Twenty Something

I make mistakes, far from perfect, judge me all you want….but this is MY life and I will live it MY way

Even if that means you will not be by my side so be it, you weren’t mean to be here anyway if you don’t last til the final bell

I don’t answer to you and you don’t answer to me

You can keep your unsolicited opinions on my activities……I’m doing the best I can

At the end of the day that’s all we can ask for

Feed me your feedback but I don’t eat the slop you put it I need actual nourishment

Daily Bread

Help me through the day

Steps guided by God, He knows my heart and I repent to Him for my sins…..Do you?

Clean up my life and make it perfect once you get yours together

Working with what I was given while like you being a work in progress...not to make excuses

This isn’t the time I just want you to lay off me and let me live

Is that too much to ask for?



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