Closure

Let’s just face facts we didn’t work

I could sit here and say unsavory things about you

And Lord knows you could slander my name

But what will that prove?

Only showing two of acting s if we were still youths

Beefing back and forth

My actions were just in my eyes

And your ways seems right in yours

From the way I broke your heart

Setting off this vicious cycle we now have going on

The power struggle

Maneuvering for the top position

When I stopped that’s when you showed emotion

And vice versa

Revenge on one another

Hurting you then trying to heal the wounds I caused in the blink of an eye

Soul mates to mortal enemies

Laughing and being lovey dovey

To exchanging mean mugs and not speaking

We’re doomed to just be what we are at the present moment

Hardly talking

Dry text messages exchanged here and there

The fire that burns in my heart for you has to be extinguished

It’s my fault you don’t love me like I want you

After all I’ve done my eyes are less hazy when it comes to my wrong

The black and white is distinguished

I hurt you like you hurt me

But at what cost?

I poisoned you by that time I was falling as the venom was already in my veins

Hate to close a door but there’s nothing left for me here anymore

I apologize for any tears I’ve made run out of those big brown eyes

Keep cultivating hoping that a new us will sprout

Maybe it’s my fault I keep manufacturing these things with you so I can have something to write about

If it was mean to then we never would’ve been broke right?

To be perfectly honest that thought of you walking down isle as my wife keeps me up at night

No time for marriage

No time for me

Vengeance wasn’t mine to seek but I did it anyway

No place for that the universe will right itself

I need to get over you

No point in rushing to the next girl

Better for me analyze myself

Stop repeating mistakes

Time for me…….I need to take

When I am alone and think back on it all

You were right to leave me

This is the man I am

And this man isn’t good enough for you

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Tap out (short, sweet and sensual)

I don't know what give up means
Me?  Throw in the towel?
Never
I have this obsession with being the best
Want you to relive this encounter
Like your favorite throwback being played

Just stop fighting
You can never win
Though you do look cute as you struggle
Overloading you with my love

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The one that got away

There’s this girl out there

That I’m madly in love with

And I am sure at one point in time she felt the same way about me

That was before the hurt

Before the pain

Before the betrayal

Before the deceit

You didn’t run away

I loosened my grip

Letting you down

The man that finally made you believe in love

Destroyed it forever

You always told me I scared you

Never knew why that was

Could it be that you knew I was the one for you

And if so maybe you felt I was going to hurt you

That’s why the guard stayed up

Chipped away at it just enough to see the why you heart pulsed for me

Didn’t change me

No not all because I still let you go

This is the story of the one that got away

After talking to my back for so long

Not having time for her she finally decided to stray

Now I sit on this bed empty, cold bed

For hours on end

Thinking about you

Writing about what we used to do

Mist in my eyes every time paper meets the pen

You were my glory

Then I had to go and sin

Not only have you written the final words in the chapter that was mine

But burned the book

No trace that I was ever a part of your life

Picked the lock on the cage

Now your smiling living without me

The perfect life, no strife

Remember how I would always get on your nerves

Always saying the wrong things

Causing you to pull away from the fire

My love the apple of my eye

My one true desire

This is the story of the one I let go

Did all the talking in the world but my actions never did show

You’re not thinking about me but that doesn’t mean I don’t miss you though

Faced with the rest of my life

Stressing over how I will never find someone like you

That gave me the feeling like you did

Made my heart skip beats at the thought of you

Made me smile just from hearing or seeing your name

Had me shaking from the sound of your voice or the caress of your hands

Sounds silly but I still believe in us

I’ve been talking to God and he told me just keep trying

He has us in each other’s future plans

I know we can never forget the bad times

Here’s to hoping we can see pass it to the love

One final make up

No more break ups

You’re my anchor you held me down

But still lifted me up

This is the end of the story

The one that got away is gone but not to worry

As long as I still have breath in my body

I will get her back

The one that makes me swoon

My angel, my peace, my  April, my May, my June

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Right Above It

Lord I’m begging for you to save my soul, lately I’ve become so cold…watching myself die when I look in the mirror the reflection is starting to look like the me of the old

I keep combating against the urge to become what I once renounced

Smile is rarely seen these days

Walking around on edge, belligerent…ready to set any wrong doer a blaze

Satan get back

Don’t try to overtake my soul

It belongs to the Lord

And even though I don’t always live my life in His image, He is the ruler of all

…Of all

Never let me down

Please don’t let me fall as I hang on for dear life

Feeling my fingers slipping

Went from right above it to now living in it

Will I be able to climb out of the abyss? 

Guess we shall see

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Welcome to heartbreak

Feels like I’m waking up from a bad dream

Everything is tangible…..just because I can see doesn’t mean things are what they seem

The ground under me is shaky

This isn’t reality

My heart isn’t there

Just red pieces of paper lumped together

I no longer know what it’s like to feel

Been living in suspended animation for years now

Can’t remember the last time I loved

When you tell me the affection you have for me…I may need my prescription adjusted because even with my glasses on I can see

What makes you different from the others

The ones that used me

Financially, emotionally, mentally and even once physically abused me

So you can keep tell me that but it goes in one ear and out the other….

You can’t be real

I don’t care about what you want from me

Your needs are none of my concern

I’ve given enough of myself  and still have yet to gain the love of another

So from this point on I only take

Thief in the night

Give me your heart

I’ll do with it what I please and air mail it back to you once I’m done toying with it

Turnabout’s fair play

Don’t tell me I’m not being fair when you haven’t done anything to cultivate this relationship

The sweet flowers of passion bare no petals and stems have slumped over, falling out of the vase

Reminisce of what was

I think of you

And my blood pressure lowers

The rage has subsided

I see you standing on the balcony

Your hair flowing in the night wind

Moonlight complimenting your skin

Frown turns into a smile

An embrace follows

Clinching you so tight I may cut up circulation

Lifting you up in the air spinning you around celebrating how I found the lover that started it all

So happy…to be with you again…a second chance to do things the right way…how they should’ve went the first time

So I toss you over the rail and watch you plummet to the busy intersection

Splat!!  Hello and goodbye

HEARTBREAK

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Just to get by

This morning I woke up

Feeling like not living but still I got up

Thinking about my life

My child

My family

My job

Then I started drinking and kept going

As I head into oblivion

Not looking back

I’m gone…..I’m gone

Every day it gets harder for me to find the will to get out of bed… Negative thoughts floating in my head…reflecting on things my sub conscious has said

Just to get by…..I’m ready to ski mask it, run up and just take what I want

I have to make it, by any means nesscary

Stomach rumbles

Drink another couple gallons of water

Have another bowl of instant oatmeal

Whatever works

It’s people out there doing more with less

I know I can make it through this

My God wouldn’t put me up against an unbeatable opponent

I will pass this test

Anything to get by

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Freaks n' Geeks

She’s attracted to my beautiful mind

Strange how things change given enough time

Remember when being intelligent didn’t make you the ladies choice

They would never listen when I was talking about my favorite but still mesmerized by my deep voice

The spell has been placed

Never plan on taking it off

Now she’s playing chess with me, having stimulating conversation about world events…..even playing a game or two of Black Ops

All before a night of mind blowing sex

Nothing like being in tune with your partner…..connecting without the aid of verbiage

Judgment unclouded but I feel high

And if you were give me a drug test not a trace would show in the screen

But when she shows up on the scene I get inebriated thinking about what’s between her thighs

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