Disconnection

“It’s at the point where I gotta ask myself/why the fuck is it so easy to detach myself?”

-Joe Budden

Where did I go wrong?

Frightened to let you be completely open with someone until it’s all over and the final curtain has fallen

It’s all over

Then all emotions are let loose

Too late for all that now

Saying things that should’ve been said a long time ago

Better if I just disappeared back into the corner that I came

Manufactured self sabotage

My life story

However this isn’t about me feeling sorry

I’ve made several beds….laid in them all

Rolled around with fleas….got up scratching

I’ve pointed the finger at those in my past

Now I’m started to see the real problem is me

Lack of trust

Giving all of me to those that don’t deserve it

Retreating back to my shell when someone that only means me well shows attention

Will I ever stop?

I want to…and it’s never too late to change…right?

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