Battle of the heart

Inner turmoil, gut wrenching agony, emotions feel my chest cavity……no room left for my heart to beat


I can’t go on any longer loving you

It’s killing me and the process is expedited every time I see your face

This is a war I can no longer fight

The things that these eyes have seen, the blows it has taken…battered, bruised….the blood I bleed

Out of ammo, no coverage from the trees totally exposed in front of you…….stripped of camo

Has been a pleasure to serve in the crusade for love

Even as it appears I am dying today for what I believe in

At least I stood for something

So draw your firearm, as I bow down to my knees leaning forward so that the apex of my head meets the barrel

Arms spread to the side like wings

Hands stretched

Fingers pointed towards my next stop on this journey

Meant to be this way, it was written

I begin talking to my Lord….telling Him soon we will be side by side

Not a tear in my eye, because I know I fought the good fight and did it to the best of my God given abilities

You however did not as it all comes back to you like a bad memory

How I was always there for you and you left me high and dry so many times

Hurts doesn’t it? I know

But you can never kill me with your acts of violence

I was dead before I stepped onto the battlefield

Emotionally speaking

As I have become unhinged

Life isn’t worth living if you won’t accept my heart



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